i will start from the middle. the other day (monday) i was coming out of the 'smart' room..i had a arm full of books and nadia was coming up the stairs. she kissed me. i was god damn shocked and didn't know what to think. me and her had been getting along real well..it just came as a surprize to me. anyways...(monday night) i was sitting down eating tea. i get a call from my boss. (last time i worked she was baggen' nadia out, and i didn't think it was very nice, so i told nadia....also told nadia not to tell anyone.) so i'm talking to sam and she asks me "simon, u didn't tell nadia about what i said, did ya?" i'm not one to lie to my boss...so i told her straight that i did. the story goes, that nada told her ex...and he was abusing sam for saying shit. yeah so that puts me between a rock and a hard place. makes me look like a little snitch and i have been fucked over with my trust. what to do? first i rang nadia and told her that i knew she kinda broke my trust and landed me in shit. she re-acted strange. we agreed that it was a good thing to cool it for a bit, but then she started saying that i led her on and that she has strong feelings for me. she has been broken up with her b/f for all of 5 days and already she has strong feelings for me...thats bullshit. i wouldn't and didn't let her turn it on me, she was in the bad for breaking my trust. next thing to do was go face sam. i talked to her tonight and told her i was sorry for telling nadia. i thought i was helping a mate...but i learnt different. there is no excuse for telling others what ppl said about them...playing all sides. i was in the wrong. i smoothed things over with sam..and talked to nadia at the start of today. i don't know how to take her. she tells me now that i hate her. (one thing that gets my jocks in a twist...when ppl tell me what i feel) i shouldn't talk to her, cuz it's only going to keep her feelings going for me. i don't know whats up with her. i know she don't feel anything for me. amyways...in a space of 24hours i got things running back on track again. i shouldn't have told nadia what sam said. sam don't have any right to say things like she did, but still...i shoulnd't have told anyone. i'm cool with talking to nadia, cuz she needs sumone at the moment. she is fucked in the head after all her crap with her ex, and i'm more than happy to talk and listen, but no more. a big thank-you must go out to my constant wingman, mrs petchel. she was the one that noticed the problem was kinda getting out of control for me and took me aside and laid shit down for me. i'm still not sure what i would do with out her. she has had my back more than once. i want to pay her back one day. thats about it for my 15 hour ass fuck...i'm just happy i got things sorted. never underestimate the power of talking things out with everyone invloved