on the monday i wne tcamping with joe out at the park. pondy and Q were meant to come as well, but some how they didn't come. i wasn't surprized that either of them didn't come. didn't think it as really their thing. me and the big man had a good time anyways. we had beer and pizza in front of a nice sized bon fire. we went exploring half way through the night and got a little lost. was good. we got on the subject of what we are gunna be like when we have kids. we kinda both agreed that in many years time we will forget what we were like and maybe be ass holes and not let them go out and all that. i don't want that...i know what i'm like now, and would never want to be held back from going to parties and shit. so we got talking on how we could remind ourselves of what we were like. i don't know if it was the beer of just us being boys, but we decided to "brand" ourselves. so we got sticks out the fire and burnt each others right forearm. fuck it hurt! looking back now, i don't know why the fuck we did it. my burn is still fucking sore and it hurts everytime it rubs on my jumper. but i guess it will remind me that we were stupid once. on the tuesday (next morning) i went over to nhill to see rebecca. i missed her and wanted to hang with her. my man skywalker was there as well. so we hung out and had a good time. i went to bed..skywalker was maybe about 2m away from me (in another bed). rebecca decided it was time to muck around. i won't go in to details, but it was very good and i enjoyed it a very lot. lol next morning me and rebecca just sat together and watched tv and read the papers. i gave her back a massage (the way she likes it) and then we went for a walk to brian's grave. i had a good time with her, as i always do. just for the record- she managed to smack me in the nuts 3 times in the 2 short days i was with her. painful. i don't know if it's me or not, but for the past week now when i talk to rebecca it seems she isn't interested. that the wrong way to put it cuz it's untrue, but there seems to be something up and she won't tell me. she just seems closed to any question. i don't know if it's sumthing that i'm doing wrong that she won't tell me about or if it's just sumthing she is going through to help grieving. it makes me sad what eva the reason. i don't like not being able to talk to her. the next day (thursday) i had a badminton match in charlton. i had to get up at 5am and get on a bus at 5:45...to travel there. i was fucked! i played alright, i was going strong really. i hate doing this because i think it is weak, but my partners really let me down on the day. i had sum fat honga that i never met before for my mixed partner and for my doubles i had dezza that can't really play that good.i got ass fucked all through those matches. when i played singles i did way better than i thought. i was put against a gun from bendigo. i thought i would go down by more than 25 points, but i ended only losing by 9. i was happy with that. out of the 7 games played i didn't win any. i was pissed at that, but i took many good lessons from it all and i am going to try to start extending my knowledge of badminton from what i have learnt. last night (friday) and today my little cousin and aunty came over. aunty sue is cool. she hasn't got much of a grip on the real world, but she has always bee cool. fraser (my cousin) is a little fucker. i love it when i get woken up at 8:30 with a sharp jab to the head from a book. and then after 45678 times of me telling him not to let jess inside...he let jess in side. he then told me i was stupid for telling him what to do. he is 5! where is the fucking respect i used to give out when i was 5?!! no way would i have eva talked like that. i got pissed off with him and grabbed him by the arm and squeezed it real tight. i wanted to snap the little fucker it 2. he soon got the idea that it isn't cool to fuck round with me. puppy dog eyes and "sorrys" don't cut it with me when u are a 5 year old cunt. i always tell rebecca that i don't have hand strength, maybe i don't tell the whole truth on that one. i save it for special times when i am with fuck stain fraser. he didn't talk to me after that...which i thought was christmas. got school on monday. can't wait! pfft. it's going to be the same as always. all i have to look forward to is inter school sport in 3 weeks. i'm gunna start training harder. until next time.