Listening to: like toy soldiers- eminem
Feeling: baffled
i have always been an open man. i don't mind others have beliefs, in fact i have never thought different of someone because of what they believe in. but the other day something wacked happened....
i don't know if any of you remember my mate neat that used to drop a few comments here and there? she hasn't been on for AGES, but we are still close.
anyways i was asking her about her eater weekend and stuff...we were just talking about random stuff. she told me she had been on a "youth" camp aka- "church camp" for 3 days. she has always gone to them and i have never thought anything of it.
she is a paster's daughter (like a priest or a father, i am not really sure if it is different or what eva) but yeah her father stands up in front of the chruch every sunday and teaches ppl about god.
neat always was unsure where her "faith" was or if she had any. i always respected that, she was standing up against her father and everything. not that she eva told him, but she stayed true to her own beliefs.
talking to her the other day she was telling me about these camps and how they help her to see her misson from god and how to stay true and that to keep the faith will take you to heaven.
i was shocked! if any of you don't know, i don't believe in god...or any gods for that reason and the word religion means little to me.
i couldn't believe that neat...the strong little soldier had "turned " ( if u want to call it that ) she had never spoken that way before and it scared me alot. i don't knoe if it is a good thing that she has "found god" or something that is bad for her.
i know that i will get comments from "believers" saying that i am crazy and i should talk about the all mighty lord like that.
i will leave you all with this-
you say that god is real. i will ask for proof and you will give me reasons. but how do you know that i don't have reasons for why he is not real?
(i hope no one is offended)
xoxoxoxoxoxo aloha my love♥
xswedishfishx436@hotmail.com
yay, that made me really happy when you said you wanted to talk to me 'SOOOOOOO bad' yay, there you go making my day again♥
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxox
-elisha-
that was a really amazing quote. that was actually somethign to think about, and i liked it =) so babe..guess what i went off and did because i'm such an amazing queen? YES, I GOT MSN =) just for you..feel special. and..well, i WANT to trust you again really badly..what you did just stunned me because you always talked about caitlin doing fucked up things to you..and then you go and pull something like this. it's as if you
bogans!
why lie and say u hate it
thats weird
God tells me the answers im looking for
i know it doesnt add up
why is it suppose to?
i wish i had a gun
guns are fun
u can shot things
and kill
i dont know about shit though
can u own a gun in ur country
God sorts of help me make decisions and helps me realize things
by giving me sighs and overwhelming emotional experiences
its hard to explain but i know
i know
u dont
but mabe u have felt something like this
something beyond u and u were not sure what the hell it was
its weird man
it has its fucks and shits but its home
yea
its a hate love thing between me and my home
what about u
do u love my home?
do u like your country?
is that 5hours in any direction
man
there are alot of bogans in this diary thing
oh yea
i know there is a God cause i speak he listens and replies
really we got some specail stuff between us im chosen to do something big
see
church is there to brainwash people really thats why they have campouts
and everything like going in on sundays and others and doing this and that
its just there to brainwash people
im not saying that God isnt there watching overcause he is
i justsaying i dontlikechurch
ok i didnt read urs
damn stright its good
if u know movies like how and why they are put together like that u will know too taht this movies is the shit
im from bakersfield cali
where u at
the beach?
is that bird over ur cult surfer and agesex stuff the one that burns itself when its old only to be reborn young again?
what the hell is cult surfer suppose to mean?
u surf cults?
weird
yea!
but if you don't beleive in god you might want to look into it sometime
yura
yura
ps. the last one was from me
me? perfection surf? hahah you are too too sweet and too nice♥ and i'm sure your a lot better than me..you have to surf with me, it's all about king and queen surfing together..FOREVER♥ so don't you dare say that you are going to watch 'perfection surf' because you are definitly coming out there with me sweetie, because you..are an amazing surfer. =) and the best part? your going to LOVE it because
i love your diary
do you surf?
yura
well maybe iam too young and completly missed your point in your entry but i hope what i said does you some good
anyways
rockon