i was talking to floz night on the phone. she said that she had sumthing to tell me..sumthing important. i listened to her. she told me that she had kissed another guy. at first i was dissapointed. it kinda hurt a little, but then i pulled my self back into line and remembered what had gone on between me and rebecca a few days ago. i went to see her on her birthday and to see if she was alright after losing a mate in a car accident. one thing lead to another and i kissed her. she didn't me...i kissed her. i was in the wong. by the sounds, floz was in the wrong aswel. we both fucked up. so now we are on the level. we were both wrong, but in my eyes it has canceled out. i don't have any feelings toward what floz did...it was a mistake, and the best of us make them. the strage thing is...it kinda kicked me in the chest. it made me see that i could lose florianne..and i don't want that. it made me want her even more. mixed up sum strong feelings for her. so after we finished telling each other our stories of cheating...i asked her out. i didn't want let her go...so at 11:07pm on the 15th of october...it was official. i now have a g/f..and couldn't be more happy with her. on a different subject all together...i was watching coach carter before and there was a cool little speech getting said, so i looked it up and thought i might save it here. really means sumthing i rekon... -Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine as children do. It's not just in some of us; it is in everyone. And as we let our own lights shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others. i rekon it's kinda cool...