well i made my mood be "awake" not becasue i feel awake, but for the first time in a long time..i have opened my eyes to what i really have to do in my life.... i was going for a walk the other night, just around town and stuff. i don't know what i saw or heard that made me think this, but i have no future in where i am living at the moment. what has this town got to offer me? what has it got that will make me want to stay here and grown up and have a family here?? the population is at an all time low of about 450 ppl...over 70% or something are over the age of 55. what is my town well know for? the best pies? a kid by the name of "googa" that did a few dumb things to get a name? our local school is going down the toilet. the school is made up of 80% old teachers that are just teaching because they have nothing else to do in their life. the teachers are sooo close together that they never let any other younger teachers in and just becasue the younger teachers have a "new" way of teaching...they are almost not wanted by the teachers at the school. take my english teacher Mr Smale for a good eg. he is new and young...some ppl think he is a "hippy" because of the way he dresses and some of the subjects he speaks on. big piss! if you really listen to him you can learn alot about your self and the world. not many people know that he is unreal good at thai boxing. the Discipline that it takes to even start to work on it...and people just pass him off for "another teacher". he is leaving at the end of this year and i can't help but think that his time at our school has been wasted. the teachers at the school are going there just to do things in their lives...to fill in the gaps. Mr Smale has tried to teach, but has been rejected by the other member of the staff. he has felt unwelcome and made up his mind to leave our town at the end of this year. all becasue our small town likes to waste the opportunities that it is given..... one day i am going to move far away from this small town...it has been good to me, but has never really given me anything in return.... peace out