i haven't writen in this diary for over 9 weeks! well i just got back from Alpine School and it was the most unrealest time i have ever had! i met 44 other people that most i didn't know. they were all special in their own way. it was a very great thing to do. anyways i get back to school and i NEED some loving. i have missed out for 9 weeks, a rule that you weren't aloud to touck the oppisite sex....not that it really stopped me! but still it was cold up there and when you hugged or kissed a person you really didn't feel anything because it was so cold and and you had so many clothes on. the only way that you could kiss a girl was outside and half the time it was snowing and stuff like that...but i still got a kiss! thats not the point in my story. when i got back to good old rainbow a few of my closest (girls) friends gave me a hug. the heat that came of those hugs were unreal! i have never felt something that warm next to my body. on the monday night i gave illana massage to normal ppl it wouldn't have ment much who have been in the warm and aloud to touch the oppisite sex. for me it was like the biggest treat in the world! just having her close to me and exploring her back with my hands and feeling the heat was an unreal thing for me to do. just the same when i hugged anita and nadia. when neat hugged me i felt her heart beating....and the warmth coming off her was like standing next to a fire. strange things....... could there be something between joe and abbey soon?? something just tells me that there MIGHT be....i don't no..?????