yeah well last night i spent a shitload of time writing caitlin a "note". it was more like a shot story, but i got it done after about an hour and a half!! the note to start off woth was just like all our other notes that we pass to each other between class, but after i went through the normal bull crap...i got real (for once)...our notes are alwasy just mucking around and everything, but this one i was serious. i told her about how i felt about going to the USA and how i had things that i wanted to tell ppl before i left, but i just didn't get the time. i told her that i knew that she liked a guy some place..(she told me once) and i said that she should tell him how she feels before he don't like her no more. i don't know if she will get the hint, but i know that i am dumb and i would have picked up all the hints that i dropped. i don't know what else to say! i love her so much, but i never want to talk to her becasue i am scared! i have never been scared of a chick before, but as i look at her...i just look in to the unknown. it scares me that i knoe nothing about her and i have fallen so hard....fucking hell!! damn...i don't want to talk to her because she is the only gulr that i know that makes my heart stop and start at the same time. if i tell her how i feel and she laughs....my heart will just stop. and if i tell her that i like her and she runs off to jenna and anita and tell them what i said and then come back and tell me what she thinks...my heart will stop. when/if i tell her i want her to look at me and tell me the real truth, not run off and tell all her mate and have a laugh.... i don't know what to do!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i am scared (first time for everything) xoxoxox