Well, I've been thinking the past couple of days and I have to call things off with Chase. Since the whole family issue, money is tight, extremely tight, and going out on weekends would be near impossible. Its better I let it all down now, before we even got into the relationship....no one gets hurt. This seems Ironic, but Michael also e-mailed me, basically staing that he found out Chase and I were together, and was surprised at first, and I guess upset he waited too long. that was just the kind of news to cheer me up, and at the same time make me look shallow. Chase was nice, but he deserves better. I dont see what anyone see's in me, honestly. I really want Mike though. I need someone who knows me and can help me through this whole ordeal. I'm not saying Chase couldnt have but a) He doesnt know me b) I dont want to put him through that, he doesnt deserve it. I really need Mikes help, I dont think anyones realizes how much I love him, past and present. I hope this whole situation doesnt screw me over again....I love him. I feel like such an ass for first dragging Chase in, and throwing him out. Call me names, I deserve it. Until tomorrow then, Your neighborhood Superman