I'm feeling pretty defeated right now. I'm giving up on something big for the first time in my life and its a depressing feeling. It seems I'm not quite cut out for basketball. Try-outs were today and I've never been closer to hell then I was today. It would've been an OK, probably GREAT try-out if this wasnt my first time actually playing basketball. I wish I could play, I really really tried to play decently, but theres so much I've missed out on its horrible. I felt so out of place and pointless. I was going to just not show up tomorrow, but thats so cowardly nd I am not a cowardly lion, I AM A BEAST DAMNIT. So I'm going to Miss. Leavy/ Levy whatever, and I'm telling her exactly how everything went down. I hope she understands. I feel like such a complete quitter. And my family and everyones going to look down on me:O/ Everything's going to get so mcuh worse tomorrow. I dont even want to think of what Michael will do:O( Ah damn. Until tomorrow then, Your Neighborhood Superman