All is not well. Wait first let me start this off by saying when you (if you) comment please dont leave me any sympathy, I feel bad enough as is and I dont want to feel as if I'm in constant need to be re-assured. So I was tlaking to kyle last night, and mike was there without my knowledge. Which I'm ok with, everything I said was the truth, so the situation doesnt bother me, its the spot they put me in. I dont want to come out of this the bad guy, I already gave Chase up once for Mike, and when he didnt respond I was left heart-broken again. I did what I THOUGHT was right by talkign to Chase and settling the whole thing, with no intention on asking him out at all. Its just the conversation went so well it just kind of....happened. Then Michael came back and I was put in the situation I thought would never happen. I had to choose. Pick me, hurt him, no pick me and hurt him. I feel so awful. I would've picked Michael in a heart-beat if the current events hadn't taken place. I've loved Michael since forever, and possibly always will, but i made the wrong move and I cant hurt Chase again because of this. No one knows how badly I want to drop it all and run back to Michaels arms. I just started walking away a moment too soon, and at the same time broke a promise. Last week I promised Michael I wouldn't like anyone else any time soon, but with the way things seemed to be going downhill I broke the promise THINKING he didnt lke me anymore. I wish there was a way to make it all go back to the way it used to be, and not hurt Chase in the process. The likeliness of Chase and I styaing together is low, but not something I can dismiss. Why must we make mistakes? Any suggestions my dear friends? Until tomorrow then, Your Nieghborhood Superman