Well I feel like shit and yet I dont. My moods change within minutes and sometimes its for the better, sometimes the worse. My softball game today was crappy. I put my neck on the cutting board to save everyone else's and came off pretty bruised. Basically I played a position I've only played once before in my life, and made everyone else look good in front of the ALL STARS coach. I didnt do HORRIBLE, but bad enough to disappoint myself. Then I suppose I just got overwhelemed and I completely choked at bat. It was so bad I started shaking and had to come out of the box for a second, which is not a Kayla thing. I did decent in inflield which I suppose is the silver lining, because I did better then the other teams short stop, which give me the credit at all stars. Mum and dad dont want me to do All Stars, and I know I want to which kinda puts some tensions between us. They support me, but they dont act like it. Both claim to be tired of the way my teammates act, which I can understand, but nonetheless its not very encouraging, and if anything its put me in the mood I am now. I want to talk to somebody who'll understand, but I feel as if I've used up all my lifelines already. I dont want to be notorious for complaining btu I feel like crap. I wish Michael were onlone....I wantted to call him today but the game didnt even start until 8:30.... Life goes on.... Everytime that I look in the mirror All these lines on my face gettin' clearer The past is gone It went by like **dusk** to dawn Isn't that the way Everybody's got their dues in life to pay I know what nobody knows Where it comes and where it goes I know it's everybody's sin You got to lose to know how to win Until tomorrow then, Your Nieghborhood Superman