Frustrated. Couldnt sign into SITD today so I'm typing this in Printshop and I'll post it later I suppose. My day was pretty crappy in general. I know I already spilled my guts out to you Captain, but apparently I had more to spill. My day was generally ok until last period. Nothing excellent happened in the earlier morning to put me in a good mood, except for being with Mike and such, but Logan ended that by the end of my day. Logan is in it for no one but himself, and although I can agree with his ways, his jerkiness adn cocky attitude is going to either be the death of him, or the downfall of me. I know I cant let him get to me, and hes not worth my frustration nya nya nya, but this kid must have it out for me. I wont even begin to describe the immatue things he does on a daily basis, but I know he does not, and never will have my respect. Logan putting me in a crappy mood came at the wrong time because I felt like I was extremely cold to Mike come the end of the day, but my frustration jut got the better of me....I'll have to apologize to him for this. Coming home wasnt much better. I wasnt in a people mood, and although I had made previous plans to hang out with Chelsea today I figured it would be better for both of us if I were to stay home. Did homework, chores and such, but what I really wanted to do was talk. The moemnt mum walked in the door I wanted to just break down and cry, but it seems mum had stolen this idea from me. She came in bustling with papers and such nonsense, in tears, for reasons she will share not. Not the first time mum has let me down these past couple months. Isnt it what every mother longs for? To have thier child want to be open with them, to have their child want their mother to hold her hand when she cries. I know guys who are more of a mother figure to me. I dont hate my mother, but shes taking all this extra work on by herself, and working for no one but herself, and I know exactly how everything will end. We'll get into a huge conflict one day, I'll yell and scream through all of my bottled emotions, and she'll realize what everything has been like and either holfd a never ending grudge againts me, like she does everyone else, or never forgive herself. I'm not looking forward to either of these options, but my mother has put herself here all on her own. She already has her own job that supports the family fine, she doesnt need to run the taxi cab too. Although it was my late grandfathers, and it holds an importantce to her, he specifically told my mother to sell the stand when he passed away, not to burden her with it. I just want to have my mother back. She wants me to be her rock through this rough time shes expieriencing, but what about my rock? Rocks dont dissolve mother, it seems shes been grinded and I cant be her shoulder to cry on when I'm in search for one of my own. I wish I could jsut open up likw this with Mike, I know he'd support me, I just dont want to bother him with it, I dont want to lose the only beautiful thing I have.... I should probably go take a walk or something, that normally calms me down. Thanks for listening to my pointless ramblings.... Until tomorrow then, Your rock-searching Superman