Blech. 7:34am, waking up this early was unnecessary but it happened. Why? Because of my sister again, rummaging through the closets. I slept late last night because I kept thinking about religion. It's so weird talking to someone who's anti-religious and then talking to someone who's religious. I wanted to be a Christian again and go to church. And a friend who's anti-religious kept questioning my beliefs and bad-mouthing religion. He had some valid points but when I was religious in 9th grade, I was happy. I gladly accepted challenges and didn't bitch about every wrong thing in my life. And for once, I controlled my anger because I was so short-tempered. So really, religion changed me for the better. And I wanted to be that person again. And then my anti-religious friend finally agreed to go to church with me so he could get answers to his questions. But then, my conversation with my sister last night just killed it. Here she was -- religious and happy but she's the worsest person she's been. She's been making my parents worried and she's such a hateful person. She's upsetted my parents and personally, I don't like the person she is anymore. She seemed so close-minded and she disliked atheism, she thought our generation was just trying to be rebellious. Being half-athiest myself, I explained to her that it's not really their fault because it's hard to believe something that you can't see. And it's not good enough to just "have faith" sometimes. Especially when we're in a world backed up with science and solid evidence. But where's the evidence in Christianity? And she said pretty dumb stuff about what she believed and what God wants and what He gave. And when I said something, she would get mad at me and say "You don't know what God wants." What the fuck was that? It was a bunch of crap that she said. Maybe I shouldn't base my choice of not going to church on my conversation with her last night. Perhaps all religious people aren't like this. But it really upsetted me, to the point where I kept thinking about it late at night. And she was acting really stupid, she wasn't acting like a Christian would. It was really pathetic and immature. She was so stubborn, only her beliefs were correct. Other churches were wrong. And she stated that she was "always right". Maybe this isn't really her belief, maybe she did it only because of the fact that her ex broked up with her because of religion/church.