i don't want to miss you tonight. but i feel so horrible, because i can't help it. _i'm desperately seeking a soulmate, someone who understands me without me ever having to explain how i feel, why things are the way they are. i'm tired of trying to explain myself. because people don't care to listen and understand anyways. i want him to enjoy staying fit like i do, although not too obsessively. he has to be willing to try new things. i like guys who like to stay in and just be with the one they love. he has to be able to turn me up and on. i want his support because my last boyfriend lacked that. i want him to believe in me. i want him to make me feel beautiful. i want him to be patient. i want him to care. about me. about the relationship. i'm not asking for a stud, or the best sexual partner ever. he has to be somewhat more intelligent than common folks. i want us to have interesting conversations, stupid conversations, and pointless conversations. having an interracial relationship is fine with me, it's what i've done so many times. make him similar to my ex-boyfriend, minus the radical side and unsympathetic side, but 100 times better. give him a dorky sense of humor like me. give me this guy for christmas <3