i miss him so much. i just want to talk to him, that's all i want. i don't care if he has a somebody in his life. i don't care if we don't make out or have sex when we see each other. what i'm just yearning is that intellectual conversation about injustices in our society. i just want to catch up on each other's lives and see how he's doing in a new environment and community. you know, i just really want him as a friend. just somebody to talk to about things and actually feel as if they're listening and actually having them talk back and form a discussion. i have a feeling i won't hear from him for a while, perhaps months. saddens me that our friendship operates this way. i wish he would make of an effort to be my friend and to know what's going on. but i know months afterward, when we do talk, he seems so eager so i guess he's making himself anticipate our meeting. last time, he told me he would be really sad the day he can't see me anymore. so i guess that's a guarantee i'll see him in the future. but two months have passed since our last meeting and i am really anticipating the next time we're going to see each other. i hope it's soon.