I don't really know what to say, I wrote about my day in my xanga. It was kinda depressing, but many days are depressing nowadays but today was different because I didn't hide my depression... especially in 2nd period. Like I was just listening to music and then Annie and Amber kept bugging me and I just went and sat by myself. And then Sergio came. He didn't help much, well he did kinda cheer me up but damn last night sucked. I just don't feel like writing all this. There's just days where I want to throw myself on my bed and cry and sometimes I feel like it's all in me but if it is, I have no control over it. Everything's just horrible. I don't understand what's the purpose of living if you're just going to have one disappointment after another and everything's a mess and maybe it's my fault, because I screw everything up! I feel so alone in this world. There's people here that's convincing me that I'm not but it sure as hell feels like I am. I guess there are people there like Liz, Sergio and Betty but I don't know. I just don't understand all the emotions and things anymore... I'll just try my best to be happy.