the talk yesterday with jose got me thinking. i feel concerned for sergio, i shouldn't care. after all that happened, i shouldn't but i can't stop caring about him. what happened to him? he's not... who he is. or maybe this is how he is, a chameleon -- constantly changing every year. he did change in our relationship at the end. whatever, i just hope he's okay. i finally rolled one, hope i did it right. i hate these menstrual cramps. hmm, this month will leave my pockets empty. there's just so many things to pay off and birthdays and everything. $250 for my housing deposit. i am already broked as it is. i feel so tired. wish i could feel someone's body and sink into it, forgetting the whole world.