earlier today, i received a letter from scripps college. it was full of apologies and sincerity but we all knew it was a rejection letter. ugh, the pain of rejection has been a familiar bitter pill i've swallowed a couple of times this month. it hurts. it sucks. it's something i've always wanted to avoid by working hard in high school. my best feels like it's not good enough. i went to the ucr orientation today. all i can say was that it was okay. i wasn't ecstatic about it, i don't feel as if i really want to go there. now i have no option. i guess i'm going to ucr. other factors are contributing to these negative emotions right now. i'd rather not indulge in them. life is being too much of a bitch right now.