i just have no idea what to do. my closest friend at school isn't talking to me, for dumb reasons too. and i'd write the details but i'm not alone right now & i'm tired out. i feel as if i shouldn't be the one apologizing & sucking up because in reality, she was rude to my boyfriend & i. but i guess i have no choice. i've tried talking to her in person during class but she totally ignored me and she wouldn't even turn around. i was gonna im her but there's no point, she could easily ignore me. and i can't call because well she's online and she uses dial-up so i don't know -- without her, i'm pretty screwed. because yeah she's my closest friend at school & we do lots of things together! but now what... things are just shitty. today was so fuckin emotional for me. life has been depressing the past week and this week too. my mom is just annoying me as hell lately. well that is all. hopefully life gets better someday... yeah, someday. i'm so tempted lately to slit my wrist but i don't wanna because i know sergio might notice easily and he's gonna go crazy on me. ughhhh.. somehow need to vanish this frustration and depression.