These days are so boring. Life seems to be filled with emptiness. Love is something that's so illusional and what is promised to be love, sure as hell don't really feel like it. I don't want to be around anyone today, I want to lead a life of just isolation. But isolation bothers me and I need someone, but no one, NO ONE, can make me happy for long. I don't know what to say of all this, it's depressing. Depression just hits me sometimes out of nowhere. I think it develops out of realizations of all the things I once had but disappeared. And I can't help it, I know it may frustrate people and to Sergio, depressed people just aren't fun but I don't like being depressed but I seriously can't help it. If there's one thing I really want, it's happiness. Happiness is a wish of mine since 9th grade but it's something so far out of reach, something I could never obtain and if I do, it was temporary. This summer was awesome because I was happy but now back in school, that happiness's disappeared just like those warm sunny days. I don't know what to make of all these feelings. I just wanna lie down and have someone tell me it's okay and cry in someone's arms.