i'm so lost, i don't know what to do. i love him and i wanna be with him still. it's so hard to live life knowing we're not together anymore. i provoked it to happen too. everything's always my fault... i didn't sleep at all last night and i'm killing myself, i know it. i'm getting all sick, i couldn't eat breakfast and i threw up. i just want him back... that's all i want...