i don't know what to write. i feel kind of down. i feel lonely right now. i wish i had him back, sad to admit but it's true. i miss him so much. so fucking incredibly much. i hate dealing with all these people around me. i just look for ways to get fucked up now. i know he's doing the same. i wish he would just come back... i feel as if we need eachother to be okay again. my head hurts but i feel calmer now than earlier. i feel as if i can never feel fulfilled or happy unless he's in my life again, with me.