fcukers, yesterday was the sat II`s. however, i didn't take it because 1) i felt like throwing up when the proctor was barely reading the directions 2) she said that we can't cancel one subject test, we have to cancel all the tests. & since i signed up for math 1c and us history... and i don't have us history... so yeah. but i never filled out the cancellation form because the lady didn't have it and the college office wasn't opened. so i was like, kinda in a state of panic because imma end up with a low score in math because i only did 2 problems or something. but ugh, i'm just gonna think about something else. afterwards, my sister and i walked to tommy`s, thinking it was extremely close but it took us a while. then we decided to just take the 14 back because we didn't wanna walk back. i'm still worrying about what's gonna happen to my sat II scores though... aw man and i find myself thinking about what's gonna happen between sergio & i every night. and fuck i end up in tears sometimes. i guess in a way i'm kinda torturing myself and he was asking me what i would do if we would break up. and WHY would he ask me something like that??? frickin drives me crazy... i ditch all my friends for this one guy and now i'm like at one my loneliest point in my life. and he just screwed me over in so many ways. and damn i never loved a guy this much before and to be without him, would be so frickin hard. i don't like the fact that he has these new friends that are in their 20`s while he's only 17. they're influencing him in a bad way. and i called his house a while ago and he's not even home. usually we would talk in the morning and i would know where he is and where he's gonna go. changes suck.