ugh life's been emo-tional lately. friday started it and saturday was the apex of all the sucky emotions. i swear i haven't felt that depressed nor suicidal for a long time. thnks to liz for always being there for me =) i love ya. well saturday was the memorial for ms. grings, really sad. our whole avid class was pratically there with the exception of rosbin, griselda and some other people but most of us were there. i think everyone cried. sergio cried, jose cried and i think if they cried, everyone else cried as well. i was speechless as what to say to her son. he seemed to be doing okay and handling it very well. on the way back, i got to sit in the backseat with sergio =] gil didn't ride back w/ us; instead lydia and leo went with us. on sunday, i went w/ sergio to the flea market at fairfax hs. it was nice, i got a cool book for only 2 bux. but i got ripped off a cd. ugh. still bitter about it. then later i went to my grandma's house -- oh boredom, there was a bbq there. the food wasn't that good either. yuckity yuck yuck. and today was alright, i know i'm probably doing that thing again -- shutting people out, locked in my misery but i can't help it. sergio's fun, he's like my best friend but is he really it? i'm scared for my astrology montly report to be true. it can be so true sometimes but i pray this isn't. [that is, if i do pray.]