10th entry BACK ON 1/4/2003 i'm dead. you don't get it, i never understood this. "Congatulations, you are now back in the game. How do you feel? Hows it gonna be now?" I dunno, I guess I just really don't know. You see Bob, it was just a regular day hitting the slopes of alpine, you know- her in the back of my mind- constantly. You know how its been all break. THinkin' of my dumb mistakes- gettin ' on other girls to try and forget HER. "So what's this got to do with anything?" "What's this got to do with anything you ask? Well fuck, don't you see? Greeted by a letter, greeted back home with something full of words I only dreamed SHE would say. And guess what? They were said. So if it's, you know.. well you get it. Well my heart is back out in the open again. Am I ready to be broken down? Pieces of me, I'm good at putting myself back together. Together..again. what. Voices in the back of my mind, those people, those friends telling me its a bad move. A bad move on my part? Or all in part because yeah, this move is screwed. And i'm addicted and i can't help but follow through. Falling through what I said I would never do again- to myself. Myself? Never cared about that before. Here we go, abuse again, but who is to say I don't like it. Mmmm its so nice. THis is about to get