Baby what am I gonna do now? I’m breathing in bed sheets... holding in... wishing I could smell your body next to mine. I bet you never thought you’d have to see me like this, an unplanned mess of unstitched seems winding down my chest. There’s no use to try and be your savior when I can’t even save myself. My thoughts are rapid and beating through my skull,- this never ending migrain with your words as my only cure. And I can’t write. My words are just shit. If only you’d find me tonight and make me your own. I’d die I swear this time in your arms. I’d die so happy this time if only I was in your arms. But I’m so weak -I’ve let my guard down. You could whisper so softly and just blow me away. I swore I’d never let you see me like this floating down a river of tears I’ve layed at my feet. Because big boys don’t cry, and manly men never let out moisture from their eyes. But you love me anyways. And I love you always...and always.