17 lets be difficult 1/28/2003 First off let's get this straight, I don't owe you anything and you don't need to act like this is all still working. You fucked me over, you went behind my back, and you ruined my reputation. We made a promise, we made a promise when we were in fucking LOVE. Don't you remember anything? Don't you remember how much it killed me to see all that happen to you? God I tried to be strong then, I tried to be strong for you. Caused me so much pain and anguish, turned my whole life around. So we got through it, we pulled through. It was gone, Then you bring it back yesterday and THROW it into my face. TELL THE WHOLE WORLD. Thanks for nothing. I didn't ever want to relive those monthes or times, why do you?? Why do you have to make this so difficult? You got your new little man now, you got your new lil' friends now, so why you got to turn them all against me? why's this have to come back from the dead and try to swallow me? you can't make up what you've done to me, and you can't spit that "i still love you" shit in my face, it doesn't work anymore. God. Why'd you have to do this? why'd you have to do that after school when i tried to talk it out with you? you looked into my eyes and made my stomach churn, then ...you know.. i don't want to think about it. funny how something that used to make me so happy suddenly makes me sick. Why'd you do this? why?