Let's just keep it going all night, I know we have it in us. Just keep it going because sometimes it's all I have. "You grew up, what happened?" going in and out of my ears. All these years, was I supposed to stop? Bringing me back to freshman year thinking I was the hottest shit to burn the earth. Know me now, forget anything you previously knew about me. It's not worth it or fair to me to remember me for who I was back then. We'd pretend to care about the past, we'd talk for hours before you went down on me. Sweaty black rooms and some time to kill, empty bottles stacking in some young 15 year old's room. Some shadow of a past that still ingers in my head. WIll it die a year from now? I'm out to kill what I once was, to only find it's a part of me that makes me better. Am i any better? It's like one more piece of me i wish I had never thrown away. I'm incomplete gluing pieces back together, but still searching for those parts that got away. PIssed away. You know me now, but still think of me then. I was the latest fad and the product of their making. You all said "yes" and I was sure to agree. Signed away some life that could have stayed young, that might not have been corrupted. Summer nights rockin the back seat, weekdays sneaking out to finish off the bottle, hit it full throttle, and hit the book with no will to even care. SMACK. It happens when you don't want it to, like a cold shower that you have to take because there;s no hot water left. I was hot water turning cold and now I"m just a luke warm mess. Run to the ground, to find a way out. "You changed so much these past two years" Nice to know you now. Nice to fucking have you see me as I am now. I've changed and hey like it or not- I'm out of here, and nothing wasn't worth it. Just a wringer you go through to comeout so much brighter- so here i am, may i live in interesting times. That means "fuck you" and this time I can take that.