33 2/25/03 2/25/2003 She always says it like it is. It's not like the childish shit matters with her anyways 'cause it's like "whoa" with her, and like "wow" with her. She tells me things no one has the balls to think, so i ponder her meanings and my own life when she says "you go to that point when nothing else matters- not even yourself. so you find yourself doing things for them even if would hurt you, even if they asked you to stop loving them, you would because you love them that much. you just want them to be happy." And i'm like "what?" and she always keeps that cool composure and lays it down like how i need to be told. She tells me i'm stupid, she calls me retarded, she listens to my problems- then tries to solve them. And through the words and the shit we drop on eachother, we can look through the haze and just figure it out. I'm hopelessly messed up and she's hopelessly in love with my friend. "cause she says things that make me go "huh?" and i say things that make her say "dumbass" but then we flip it around and she's like "wha?" and i'm like "annoying RETARD" but it's just the way we make it flow. "cause sometimes she can't stand the heat I pack, and other times I can't stand her. But it's just how it goes for us.