entry 12 dub 12 1/16/2003 This is the one that starts the mess, and this is will be the end of the start. What you thinkin' doing that today? Trying to rebuild shit thats faded away. You can't rebuild it, you can't repeat it, you can't get up on this. Now don't start with that "it didn't mean anything" bit, to me thats just a bunch of shit. Going back to the days and the ways of how we used to play by this city by the bay. So hot to trot being nothing that i'm not, but it seems we just up and forgot. Don't walk and give that talk like that was no thing, 'cause something like that might just be everthing.So look chlo, we had the world once in the palm of our hand, took it off the shelf and lost it same way i'll never understand. 2 years later and you actin 'like were gonna start where we left off, or at least try to get beyond this akwardness. I wanted to try to rebuild it earlier, but you just stayed with mo and payed me no mind. no this? or what about that? weird o now, we were just friends, and thats all i want - but i can still feel it on my cheek, what you left behind outside the counselours office. stupid, so stupid.