From the boy who fell through...

Listening to: Bright eyes
Right then, with silence hanging heavy over our month’s favorite cd, I knew things were going to be different. As she closed the door behind her and looked back over her shoulder; walking slowly up those wooden makeshift steps to her dorm; I turned off the player and retracted my eyes to my feet. I had learned in the past weeks that in saying our goodnight’s it was always best to take that one last look into soft italian eyes. But in saying our goodbye’s, I just fumbled on every word that somehow kept getting caught on the tip of my tongue -making me look past her face to the passerby’s on the street. Those were the eye’s I grew to know as familiar, as the comforting warmth that could paralyze my body and sedate me into the unknown. For years those eyes had pierced me, carved through me, and then held me and pulled me through them. The past month I spent everyday with those eyes discovering what lied behind them, learning her each movement. The way she’d bite her lip when she was frustrated, the way she ended each laugh with a sigh, and those eyes..what of those eyes? Two weeks ago they began to move and look at me different, the kind of different where you knew they loved you. We’d end up at a party and I’d be belligerent and while everyone could look on disgustingly, those eyes would find me, smile and almost say “I love it, I want to embrace your everything and hold it.” And now weeks later it’s time for our separation, for me to go back to college and for her to stay here. And through the silence driving back to her dorm I knew I had to look in those eyes one last time. With no success and too much concentration on saying the right thing, I let those eyes slip me by. As she climbed those stairs and I counted the laces on my shoe, I could feel her stare back over her shoulder at me trying to catch that one last goodbye.
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Thanks for the comment, your writing intrigues me so much. I read the things you write and sit here and I could sit here and think about it for hours...it's awesome. I love your background too. It's very...mysterious.

*Jenna
[Anonymous]
i am pleased to please. did i mention you have a sexy boday?
[Anonymous]
hey hey love.. well yes things are all good in this hood. as far as im concerned.. hehe yeah, i love the hot boys on my site :):) makes a girl happy. later tater!
[Anonymous]
thanks for the comment about the song!
[Anonymous]
haha, i bet you'd like to know... silly boy

no really? i will tell you.
email me at perfectlyperfecttogether@yahoo.com
[Anonymous]
wow hey-thanks ur so sweet! its great to know that at least one hottie is leaving u comments and im glad 2 be her! keep writing cuz u rawk my candi coated lips off!!!! love 4ever
*katie*
[Anonymous]
hey...by the way plz do me a favor and email me at shinebriteshinefar@hotmail.com thanks...much luv-katie
[Anonymous]
I'm just saying hey, because i come across your journal every other time i'm on this site and just almost always relate to ur situations, or understand them at least. (as much as i can by just reading what you write anyways). Good luck in your life, and keep writing, your writing style is very unique.

Sex, Drugs and Rock and Roll.
[Anonymous]
haha, your new pic is hooot..... i hope that the surprise party goes well as well... i left blanks just incase the guy read it...thatd be bad if he did and knew the party was for him...
[Anonymous]
oh kid, i can't get enough of you. and i am going to let you in on a little secret if you give me your email address so this little secret of mine stays between you and me. okay love? well, you are welcome for the recommendation and you won't be missing me all that much, you will be seeing plenty of me, for sure.
Right so the last comment, was supposed to say I could sit here and think about it for hours...I think you get the point though...
*Jenna
[Anonymous]
cute picture... :)
[Anonymous]
cute picture... :)
[Anonymous]
hey chad! hot pic...im so diggin it! keep writing!!!!! i/m me soon
*katie*((hot))
[Anonymous]
hey chad! hot pic...im so diggin it! keep writing!!!!! i/m me soon
*katie*((hot))
[Anonymous]
nice? me...wut did i say to get that compliment..i 4got...

[laundrymat]
[Anonymous]
i love the pic-art. so classic.
[Anonymous]
heeeyyy yyooouuu :) hold on loosely, and don't let go.
[Anonymous]
4 thumbs up...!
that was really beautiful...
[Anonymous]
thanks ill have to check them out when i have more time..right now im waiting for the cops to come--just hit my brother's friend's car...
[Anonymous]
oh shuckss, thats darling your too cute. Yes thats what i need a guy too drunk, for EVERYTHING.

looovvvves!

-jessie
[Anonymous]
Awww I am sorry that sounds sad. You never told me about her tho... but she sounds amazing, good luck chad
EvE
thanks babe :D
the way you write makes it seem like it's fiction. god that;s so beautiful you're really talented. thanks for the comment. you rock even harder ;)
-laurel
Hey chad-omg it was great..as is all of your work! Thats so sad..im sry...i can tell that u really love her its sooooooooooooooo romantic...how you go into complete depth with simple parts of the body...the eyes.WoW...though you never cease to amaze me this sends chills...nice work my writing buddy
*much love*
Katie
[Anonymous]
You play it real on here. I like it. I wish I could see more of what you write, but my comp has messed up colors, so the only entry I could read was the one on the main diary page.

But it was good, man. I have the shoelace problem too. Maybe there's a pill for it?

--Nick
[Anonymous]
whoa, are you sure you wrote that in the right diary, your addiction? i wish anything of mine would be eligable to be your addiction, but all i write is shit. most of it anyway. hmm, your picture is my infatuation. most deff it is. i <3 it like whoa. it is hawt.
[Anonymous]
are you seeing bright eyes on their tour?
[Anonymous]
wow, that entry brought tears to my eyes, no joke. what do you mean i am good at writing, you are amazing. really. your style and description made me feel as if i could see this happening. you are amazing.
on another note, i wish i could say i have never felt the way you do right now, but that would be a lie, i know all too well what you feel. that wretched feeling engulfed my every action for too long. i am sorry things are as such for you.
[Anonymous]
yeah in chicago
[Anonymous]
haha, the supercool mark? hmm, don't know about that one. and you are the sweetest kid ever. you commented in both of my journals, that is funny.
sorry that you are going through such a shitty feeling, i know how you feel babe, try to keep your chin up
[Anonymous]
yea...very strange combo. of parents lol

and yea the song is from AAR

whos the person in the pic? comment back on my journel
i came across you diary and i really like you're writing. im michelle by the way..
[Anonymous]