49 THink It's Time 3/10/2003 OK this is for julia because she asked me to write this up for her, because for someone reason she liked it and it means something to her- I dunno. I wrote this HELLA long ago. Almost two years ago. so here it is... And here goes another day of having to have to see you in class. Did you have to sit next to me? Please remove your hands from my face, if I wanted to smile I would figure out away to do it without your hands pulling my mouth apart. God you are so fucking annoying. And I bite my tongue as I turn my head away from you, because I don't want to look at you and lose it. And there you go talking away, and i don't fucking care. Everyday and you run around in front of me trying to impress me, but talking louder won't make what you're saying any better. Shut the hell up. Stop looking at me. Stop trying to catch my eyes. I want to turn and tell you how it is now. How things will never be the same, but you would never understand. YOu would just sit in your chair and remind me for the billionth time how you are jealous of my friends. How did we reach this point? How did I go from loving you to hating everything you stand for? I remember a sunday morning laying in my bed. YOu talked of how you wanted to leave the west behind to go to some college back East. I tried to tell you that would be dumb "It's too far and the weather gets too cold." And I never said I didn't want you to go because I would miss you, but you just presumed that's what I ment. And I remember my face catching on fire with embarrassment.Was that what I ment? So I remember trying to touch you and put my arm around you, but you moved away. So maybe you were ment to move away somewhere far far away, b/c obvioulsy I will never figure us out, and I wish you would just leave. Just leave me alone. So hey, I said "Screw you! I"m moving on." And that's what I did. I don't need this shit anymore. FUck you for saying you know me so well, you don't know shit. Goddamn best choice I ever made. You are annoying , did I mention that? ANd now everyday I have to deal with you pretending you don't know where it all went wrong. YOU LIAR! You were the part that FELL apart. I even knew that. Damn. YOu are so annoying