The screen play of how it is now.

Listen closely and just read me well. For your sake and for the sake of fate- the story will begin behind the bottle of gin reeking these last words of latest sin. Foot steps so close I think their mine, words sprawled out on corners of knives. Just words I hope this time. And by and by its your words that start to defy every sense of gravity in my veins. Who knew, besides you, that these words would go through my skin to drown in blood and block the ateries feeding my heart. “BoOom BOOoom..” and then...nothing... Nothing at all... there is nothing at all anymore.... So behind closed doors there’s ways for pay back. The ways that make my mind inclined for cures. So after foreplay and sticky skin I’m ready once again for my latest sin. Take it in so I can put you out of mind until pillow talk begins to speak of you.. “What’s her name? The one who used to play your game? love you say? such a shame.” And I’d hate to say I hate you, but I’d hate it more to say I love you. And honesty is my only weapon. The one where I see signs traveling 80 south on the 101. COming to get you, coming so strong, coming to get you. Pulling into town behind the smog that chokes me before you even get a chance. I hate this place, I hate what you’ve become. What makes you think I’d want this at all? (Guy enters party.) And behind your slurred words and drunken eyes I’ll rip your lips away from that other guy. And you’ll have to look at me now and give me your time before I finally take back what’s mine. Before I can take back every piece of heart you’ve broke, I’d just this time like to squeeze you tight , such a loving embrace until there’s no more air for you to breathe.
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thanks..im having better days now..even tho i did just start a new semester at school and of all people to have a class with i have one with my brother...who which i hate..with a passion...
[Anonymous]
and you are so gorgeously handsome.... soooooooooo damn cute!i cant get over it -talented,sweet, and good looking... i cant get over it! i mean DAMN!
[Anonymous]
thank you much sir
you just might be my new addiction...
wow i was just reading ur comments & i'm like wow people are like drueling over u & then i felt bad because the first thing i said to u was that u were good looking...it seems to me like people like u best for the way u look & not for what u write. i feel sorry for them because what u write is awesome & obviously heart felt & spawned from life's inspiration...u totally rock man & not beacause ur cute, but because ur mind is beautiful...pearl...
yeaaah i guesss so. ;)

nice, nice entry.
[Anonymous]
whoa dude, ur quite the ladies man now arent ya, haa shes right the drool over u, but im wicked cool remember so im a exception.

=)
[Anonymous]
im addicted 2 ur writing lol ((corny))
*luv*
Kt
[Anonymous]
that? was fucking psychotic, and i'm entirely ... in lust.
i'm sorry it hurts that bad though. i can feel that, i swear.

cursive = heart.
i love cursive. mmm, they are good stuffs. and it is ashame the pictures were taken off the site cos you are a beauty to look at. well, anyway, i am sorry for bugging you. i will let you be now. sorry.
[Anonymous]
Hahahha...

...you could be right. I would make a good dominatrix, I look good in heavy make up. :op *makes whip noises excitedly*

The Beatles do own indeedly. :oD
[Anonymous]
mmm i LOOVEEE cursive :D
and you ;)

- heylush
[Anonymous]
ur welcome. and i'm glad to know i made ur day...pearl...
ohh and how was that fucking showwwww?

=)
[Anonymous]
awww- no thank YOU and u dont just rock- u rock HARD!!!!!its intense
*much luv*
Katie
[Anonymous]
awwww thanks sweetie!!!i jsut wrote a new one too! its kinda good...check it out!!!!!
*luv*
Katie
[Anonymous]
don't know now if i thanked you for your comment. I do now, and would like to give you the same.
keep it up...
jees ur one popular dude....ya sexy thang you ;) wink wink
[Anonymous]
cursive is awesome, i love saddle creek record bands, bright eys is my favorite.
and yes boggie nights is a great movie.
[Anonymous]
sry so 4ward :/
[Anonymous]
watermelon schnaps AND strawberry puckers lol. good times. thanks for the comment ;)
i just went back and read your entry, and its like, a masterpiece. no kidding. you are really talented and i love how you wrote that.
Chad! You are such a beautiful person in so many ways! I still miss ya! Havent talked in a while, I kinda miss the old dayz (last year lol) ~EvE
[Anonymous]
Fabulous man, it was good
Damaged
-Jenna
[Anonymous]
your like cursive ,bright eyes modest mouse, thursday, your awesome in my book, what part of cali are you from?
[Anonymous]
wow...that's really fucking good. ~Ash~
wow. you're an amazing writer. i truly admire you for that

Caroline
[Anonymous]
yea-hey thanks...i write a whole hell of a lot, bout love,death,hatred, friendship and other shit...imma add u to my friends so i can read your stuff- thanks again *katie*
[Anonymous]
wow...that is intense...
very good...
"i wish you would take my radio to bed with you.. plugged in and ready to fall.."-alkaline trio
[Anonymous]
that was beautiful. just wanted to say 'hey', hope all is well. we'll have to catch up. miss you and love you.

.c.i.n.d.y.
[Anonymous]
Chad ur such a beautiful person with beautiful words dont change that for anything! ~Yo numba 1 stunnin bitch EvE ;)
[Anonymous]
Hey, you seem really cool and you're an amazing writer. I just wanted to let you know that. Have a great day. ~Aten16
[Anonymous]
hello random person #11! you will get a random hello like every other random person out there:

hello there.


your journal's awesome. you should rock on as well.

:)

.k.
[Anonymous]
chad's my hero.
"Love is like war: easy to begin but very hard to stop"
[Anonymous]
dude! cursive rocks! haha...and that "hot picture" wuold be me :P
[Anonymous]
u have a knack for writing! never stop cuz u rock!!!!! i love readin ur stuff
[Anonymous]
intense..
RYC: yea juliana theory is pretty sweet, saw them in concert over the summer :)
Take care hun!!
-=erica=-
[Anonymous]
Thanks, I hope everything's going well for you too. Amazing stuff, once again.
*Jenna
[Anonymous]
wow
[Anonymous]
yea-hey thanks...i write a whole hell of a lot, bout love,death,hatred, friendship and other shit...imma add u to my friends so i can read your stuff- thanks again *katie*
[Anonymous]
just wanted 2 say-*damn ur hot*
[Anonymous]
hahaha thanks. and did you really know its me? somehow i doubt that :P
[Anonymous]
i like one part of your entry the most here it is
And behind your slurred words and drunken eyes I’ll rip your lips away from that other guy. And you’ll have to look at me now and give me your time before I finally take back what’s mine.
IM FUCKIN LOVING IT! u have no damn idea how much it rocks... its so romantic and sweet yet harsh and tormented and i love it to death i love it!!!! keep writing and i/m me at Sunsetmist1489 *katie*
[Anonymous]
thanks for the comment...i really like what you write....most of my stuff blows.

-julia-
[Anonymous]
thats amazing. *whoa*
[Anonymous]
yea, i dont know why she posted that of me, i didnt like it! eck
[Anonymous]
you think i am good at writing? i am, wow, i am speechless. thanks i think. i am flattered, i would love if you continued to read me, really, i have been reading you for a while and i love what you have to say. you are so cute too.
[Anonymous]
subway eat fresh!
[Anonymous]
o chad if thats u in the pic, ur cute
[Anonymous]
oh wow, you are a doll, and a hot one at that, and i can't believe how amazingly nice you are being to me. it is weird. if you are interested you should read shadowsfall's journal too, that diary has better writing in my opinion
[Anonymous]
you are welcome, i hope you enjoy their diaries, they will suit you better than i have.
ha thanks. i'll try to love myself. it just takes awhile. :)
[Anonymous]
aww, thanks babe, you are too sweet. i love it.
and i can't get over how violently adorable you are.
[Anonymous]