Somewhere along the way I messed up, I took everything I thought I knew and then began to realize I knew nothing at all. I’m torn between scene one and scene two, ready maybe to move on, but having something gripping so tight it’s holding me back. My stomach can’t take the tears I know i’m not worth, but yet they’re the thing that makes me sick to the point I might just throw up my heart. I’m traveling 100 miles per hour on some un discovered road, hitting every bump trying to learn it on my own. But I’m going so fast I can’t see a thinkg in front of me, I feel like my head just hit the wall- and it’s times like these I just wish it would expload. I’m every definition in the book of tainted love, but what is love to me but that which only knew to kill and make my body convulse with the worries I might lose you. And it’s true, I should just tape my mouth shut and forget I ever felt a thing, but it’s hard to move on when your living inside of my fucking brain. i don’t understand anything anymore. If I could have my way I’d be the man with the genie asking him to cure my heart and make my mind forget. Basically, fuck. So i thought “Hey! I think this might be it.” But then your words found me 500 miles away and made me second guess everything I thought I was doing right. Maybe it’s just your way to ensure no one ever forgets that you will always be able to prove me wrong.