31 I WRITE stuff 2/23/2003 OK I figured out the PRO to this whole situation. OUt of all the shit the comes with it there are still the good- First off, I can basically do whatever the fuck I want. Before I always had to tell the 'rents where i was going and with who and when i would be back and stuff. NOw my mom is sick and dad is so preoccupied, I can just say "later, i'm going out" or just show up wit people and have them spend the night and do whatever. I mean sure it feels kinda shitty that everyone's head is somewhere else besides worrying about where i am, but hey - this is what we always want. Second off, probably MOST IMPORTANT, is that I have THE BEST GIRL IN THE WORLD on my side. Through all tihs crap and she stays loyal and is always there no matter what. And I just want her to know that even though I have been hella distant this past week and may not have given her all the time I should have, I still appreciate every thing she does and all the love and support she gives me during these times. Without her her I don't know what i would do. They say someone's true character comes out in times of need and trouble, but with her- she just keeps getting better. She deserves so much better than what i am to her. If you took took all the best things about every guy in the world and every good thing anyone ever did and times it by a million, that is the kind of guy she deserves. I love you alia.