18 letter to cait 1 & 2 1/30/2003 fact- Jp's remedies aren't what you would say every best friend would use to make you feel better, but he was so right on it. Worked for me, might even work for you. A hypocritical mess, I know, I've heard it a thousand times. Instead of getting rid of this pain she's always wheelin' at me, i burry it just below the surface. And when its her turn to make a mess, she kicks up the dust that i Thought had settled and brings back the "dead." Put in milder terms "Dum dee dum dee doo looks like i stepped in the same ol' poo." I'm gettin' older, I'm movin' on, your gettin' more immature everytime we talk.. wait did i say "we" talk..i ment YOU talk. I'm just the listening post that pays for all the reprocutions of your acts. WEll.. my acts too, but that was so long ago- I'd like to think I already payed for mine- and with you still around I am constantly still paying- even hitting my head asking "why the hell did i do this?! What was i thinking?" you are the devil in disguise, the fucking iceberg that sunk the ship. You know what buttons to push, you know the right one to ruin my day, my week, and my life. So why do you have to push all of them at once this week? Besides fucking up my life, you are ruining relationships i have withother people. I know you like that, I know you want to see everything i start to love pissed away because "she" isn't you. Far from it, thank god. She is in actuality everything you could never be, ouch. the truth hurts like a BITCH. Just like you. I"m in love, not with you, get over it. LEAVE ME ALONE. GET OUT OF MY HEAD. GRow up, please- for the sake of my sanity, just please grow up. I'm gettin' older, I'm gettin' ready to leave for college, I don't need your daily dosage of bull shit anymore. You proved your point, you proved WE messed up once. so now its time to wise up and just realize whats in the past and just move on into the future. So if you have ANY plans of being in my future, you got to sort this stuff out, sort out these issues you got going on inside your messed up little head. I tried to help, but there was only so much i could do before you literally drained me. emotionally and physically. you remember the ulcers, i remember dropping 15 pounds because you made me so sick and scared I couldn't eat. So don't say you went through it all alone. I WAS THERE. YOU LEFT ME, REMEMBER?! So stick with your original plan, and just forget about me.