14 stupid you 1/18/2003 I'm in this bottle, she's casting those stares across the room. Can't concentrate enough on the image because the image is not enough to keep me interested. "hey chad, how are you?" I can't decide if she said "too bad, what are you?" or "the fad, always in you." So I continue to stare into her face, I tried looking beyond it to see someone else, but she stayed the same, didn't even change as the room spinned around. I want to get away, where is that boyfriend of hers anyways? hmmm...escape route...i see Andy taking a keg stand to the left, and jp's out to the right on the deck hittin' the bong with the rest of 'em. so whats the plan? maybe if i'm still she won't notice me. oh such a dunkard, i'm so dumb. she keeps asking questions, but i haven't heard one. Smile and nod, they like that look. she's always liked this look. Smile, that is the key. she once told me she got lost in my smile. a lie? probably. but its my only chance. smile big this time. she stops and looks at me. i look away because thats too much to handle. "cailtin, where is mike?" oh he went to pick up stephen. why do you care?" ummm in my head "i really don't care." i don't.