52 Just a guy. We don't get things. 3/13/2003 Explaining your explanations is turning my head inside out, but i'm outside in- putting my heart out for all to see. do you see it yet? It's got your name written all over it. ERASE, ERASE. I tried, tried so hard to try and get yor mark out of my system, but somehow it keeps lingering around. You're carved out in every inch of me that breathes. When you say "break" do you mean to break me down to pieces? Words, words, words they spill from your finger tips and wrap around me. Get this grip off of me. I can't just unclasp this or forget what I felt just yesterday for you. But I could try if it's what you really need. Wish I could feed my need, but you're gone and I'm left starving for this satisfaction which is you. I'm burning holes into my ceiling everynight when I lay in bed thinking about you. You're so good at being everywhere when you are nowhere around. I know, I try to believe you when you say "I love you, never doubt that." But what is that you're doing now? You're figuring you're life out, but I'm being figured out of it. I'm okay, I'm okay. I can take in this next breath- close- but I did it. I understand what you need, but can't have what I want. so I'll wait- FOREVER just doesn't seem too long for someone like you. I'd rather wait this like time then never be able to have you back. So how long does it really take to figure out one's life? HOw long does it take to get back on your old track? This could take monthes, translating what will feel like years to me. Forget me, forget me not. In teenage time, a month is an easy way to forget me. Just the otherday when we didn't talk, I didn't know how I would get through the day- just thinking you didn't want to talk to me. Because when you don't talk, it's easier to forget.