this is my first entry...ive written before diary entries but not like this..today i feel like ive felt many times before...kinda sad...kinda dissapointed with something or someone...that someone must be me cuz no ones done anything to me..at least not today..i feel really alone, but thats normal. its amazing how u can be someone completely different with urself than u are with other people. its not faking cuz it comes naturally, its kind of ignoring urself and how u feel and treating u like u deserve the worst for what uve done to urself when the only thing u need is help. and the only person u need it from is urself. its kinda confusing but ull understang it when u feel it. i dont feel inspired at all today so im not writing emotional things..i dunno i sometime i feel that its not even worth it...nothing changes with expressing it all out..