havent updated in a while..so...i dyed my hair purple again...it rocks..but i think the stupid skool of fuck is gonna make me dye it black again...i think they will cuz a friend had her bangs pink and they made her...whatever..im really really sad..not the kind of sad im always..but i feel kind of..unprotected and insecure sad..i dunno its weird..its the kind of sad u would feel if u were 5 and ur mom told u ur imaginary friend died so u would stop having one...like a fantasy's taken away..its bcuz of beto...he's been super weird lately...its like bfore we were the best friends in the world and i even liked him a lot and u know what happened with him at the dance..and everything..and now he ignores me completely!! its like he almost runs away...fuck him why is he like that? ..he cant do that u cant do that..treat someone like ur gonna b there forever and then jsut let go..i mean and ive told him several times like beto ur not the same whats wrong and he always changes the topic and ends going away...i cant believe this...i thought we were gonna b best friends forever...i mean he even thought we were gonna get married..! pathetic..fuckit...later..