diary. ashhhhhhhhhasdhsfjansdjlnaglkjasstsaksjfdnalwkenlaf...ok now. no not okay. i hate it ive been at home all week sweeping the floors with my pjs and swallowing the whole fridge and when i finally feel like going out all of my friends have something to do or they just dont feel like doing something. and some of them are going to the casino which isnt really a casino its just a shitty disco wannabe where underaged snobbs can go and get drunk and have a great time. the thing is its 150 $ which is like 17 dlls and i get like 25 dlls a week so im not gonna go spend half of my next weeks money to go and watch the fucking rich kids get drunk. and i really wanted to go to this open party but they dont feel like it cuz they can afford to go to the casino so why bother going to a stupid open party. i feel like going out about once a month . thats not cool. and my friends got the perfect timing to be all either grounded or rich at the exact same time. and now my mood is all crappy again like its been the whole week and i suddenly feel sleepy and like crying and i just watched a movie that remembers me so much to cheches cuz he secretly loves it and im the only person that knows. so yeah he loves win a date with tad hamilton and u got me crying over a stupid chick flick cuz my ex bf loves it. im sooooooooooooooo pathetic right now. ive read 3 books in two weeks. and im alone at home and i dont have one fuckin smoke. and no money. im just gonna go get more tiramisu so in a week i can actually bounce. later.