so yesterday was a friends party...it was awsome !!! idanced like i hadnt in a looong time...it was cool and i really likes the way i looked which doesnt happen any often haha so i had fun...the only ugly part was when the slowsongs started..and i had to sit my ass down cuz i have no boyfrieendd and i was with two other friends that dont have a boyfriend either and we were just like watching...and then nico (if u remember him) was like give me a kiss give me a kiss...and i was like no way get out of heree...gosh i wish someday i could understand what he feels...anyway he got his kiss only that in the cheek...not what he wanted but im not that of a whore haha ..we stayed theredancing until 2 am only close friends so it was awsome..then we went to my friends house and some guys (close friends) stayed there until like 4 am..then they left and we talked and watched movies and got all goofy ..it was awsome...i felt really comfortable with my friends and that doesnt happen often..i dunno what happened yesterday i felt really confident and happy...thats not like me but it sure feels amazing...anyways gus (jerk) was also at the party with his girlfriend (whore)...and in the slowdance i couldnt take my eyes off them..the good thing was that i tried to picture myself in her place..u know dancing with him really close holding me tight..kissing my cheek..just like he was and i couldn picture it..i dunno im starting to let go off him and thats awsome..i think i was afraid to do that but know im realizing i was making myself suffer and the only one that could stop it was myself..so it was just a matter of me deciding it...well ttyl love yall ! gosh i cant remember the last time i was this happy haha i hope it lasts !