i think i'm a loner..i always feel so alone..i'm getting used to being with myself.. so its been a long long time..i'm still single.. i stopped my terrible habit of biting my nails and i'm afraid its starting again because yesterday and today i bit the hell out of my hands..but i'm trying hard so thats what matters.. i'm still a real mess but know i try to hide it from myself..i say to the world i don't smoke but i still do..i'd like to get out of my house and don't come back in like 6 years..thats how my family is doing..but i think im better with myself as wierd as it might sound..its like now i know me..with all the shit thats been going on now i know that i might be alone and might dont like me a whole lot but at least i know who i am..and i know that this is the person im gonna live with my whole life so i better start liking myself..anyways..on monday i went to a friends house to the pool with all my friends..it was pretty cool..i wanted to post some pics but i can't remember how..so..i wont..later..