so i still have my purple hair cuz they havent said anything at skool..cool..that rhymed...ok..and then today at a break at was walking in the hall and i saw beto and he hold my hand and said hey i already have ur bday present..and i could feel my face turn red and i could feel my cheeks as hard as rocks bcuz of the stupid smile i was wearing..and i was like really what is it but he wouldnt tell..im almost sure that its a drawing..last year he did a song for me..but im pretty sure its a drawing..anyways then we went to the mall and he was there and he acted weird again..fuck..like he just said hi and just like ignored me..i dunno its like he doesnt care about me anymore..oh well im used to it i shouldve learned to let go by now..anywayss.... my mom is leaving tomorrow to argentina for a week for a congress or something like that..and my sister and i are staying with my dad and hes bday is on sunday...i guess its cool cuz we havent fight for a while..its like both of us have so much shit going on and we are too sensitive right now to b fighting so its okay i guess... back to beto..yeah i cant stop thinking about him..wrote him this..not something i can show him but its for him... The moon got shot tonight, Promises broke with your unconscious lie, Watching it every night, Didn’t help, you had to say goodbye… You woke me up from my undying nightmare, To take me home but you took me higher, And dropped me to the floor, So hard I made a hole, and stayed there… You had the perfect kiss, The one that closed my eyes and wet my lips, But you were up for mistakes, and i wasnt up for lies, so now you have the faking smile… It hurts, it stabs, and it makes me cry, To see your beautiful game, to feel us die, But tomorrow you will be the one in sore, And I won’t care about you, not anymore… Come on, burn what’s left inside of me, And then try with someone else, If they love you like I did, You can rip off the memory of when you made me live… dont feel sorry, ill be okay, it's not ur fault im completely in decay, every best friend has a little defect, too bad yours was running away...