shit

by emotionsfade
Feeling: crappy
shit..fuck..beto is like telling everyhting that he did yesterday with his girlfriend n im like with tears in my eyes....i hate to lie to him but i have to..im not going to tell him like noo i love uu come back to mee...i have to be like thats awsomee o my good ur like the perfect couple and stuff..shit...i wish i did something earlier..im like i want to do something to tell him but i cant...i cant ruin his relationship with her and our friendship just because im stupid for not saying anything before...now what will happen..i mean he was the only person that could make me like myself because he liked me i mean he thought i was great...but know he likes someone way much more than me so...i feel like all he said was bullshit n i feel like shit...i know thats selfish and stupid but i cant help it..its just the way i am..and know i dont want to talk to him anymore cuz it hurts like hell..but i dont want to loose him..more than i already have..and know i feel that he is ignoring me..mayb hes not but thats the way i feel cuz he is sooo into her..anyway..later..
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hahah thnas you're so cool about this. i'm glad we can be friends.
haha. makes sense.
yeah she is hurting me, but whatever i just have to deal with it.
Okay good night brenda
Yeah haha its cool
haha thats funny. well my friends are jus regular guys, they all like rock music and listenin' to music, my friend Colin is really funny, he always says funny things haha
hhaa sounds interesting, im in grade 11 and I realy hate school, its so boring the people in my school are so stupid. I think there's one girl in my grade from Chile but apart from that there's no other international people. You stole cookies? hahaha
Yeah what an odd story, hope you dont bleed to death. umm let's talk about your school, what are the people like at it?
hehe cool, yeah i agree the weather is boring, lets talk about somethin else
oh gosh, im soory that must suck i go through that a lot, liek no joke, i liek this guy and he was obsessed with me, but i took it for gradtid so, now hes not and i miss him soo much like im getting tears in my eyes now..and like my friend flirts with him and its just so messed up
Yeah haha it is made up, thats okay though cuz you from mexico wheres its hot all the time, that must be really cool.
Haha good idea Brenda, except in the summer it's realy warm, maybe not as much as mexico but its still really warm.
Haha yeah i know we must sound so foolish, anyways sure if i ever visit monterrey i'll look you up haha.
lol yeah thats how most people feel when they come up here. I really would like to visit Mexico, I learnt a bit of spanish at school.
cool! Mexico! you're the first person I've met from mexico. Yeah Candada is like the opposite of mexico, cold haha.
haha cool im from Canada, how bout you?
Yep!! Anything for you! lol x0xLex
haha really? you think they're good? wow thanks so much, i appreciate it a lot. do you mid if i add you to my friends list?
Yeah the poem was very intense, I hope whatever you wer feeling you're done with now
haha thanks but I feel like it's urs
haha.thanks.I don't write in it all the time any ways...it's not a big deal to me. But you know.
hahah well i got the sense of the poem fom " i wish you'd get to know me before i'm too dead, i love that line.
haha common, they're good, stop being modest.
Hey! I really like oyur poem the unspeakabes left alone, i like the last line especially, you're a really good poet. I can feel your pain haha. (and yes I will thank you once i get a song)_
yeah sure, Rob's fine. haha pro? that's a joke, im an amateur. Where are your poems i want to read them, if you don't mind.
hah yeah we all have those days, thats what i felt like when i was writing it.
Thanks Brenda, yeah i wrote it, it's always really cool to hear from someone who likes your work so again thanks
thank you, my diary is just like my real diary. weird huh?
yup i am in the same position you are in. exept i am a guy , and my guy is claiming he is straight still even thought we have been around the world and back again. oh well i am still waiting and always.................
Relationship drama sucks....

rockin out with our purple hair...hellz yeah..
thank you so much for your comment. you are so correct. heart you.

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[Anonymous]
hey. thanks..i'll definitely take care of my friendship with her. she's my best friend and i'd never let her go. but anyways. wow..i'm sorry that you like this guy but he is dating another girl. just wait for him..maybe he'll realize that you mean more him then she does..and that you always have. keep your head up. smile! -ashley