dear diary, wow ..its amazing how im falling for him...its like im starting to know him...yet ive known him my whole life..its kinda wierd..but really cute..and today i was going through my box of memories and i found this picture of when we were dating back in sixth grade...its sooo comic we were so ugly...i was so thiin *sobs*..anyhow..he told me he thought about me today..thats good i guess..and then i dunno...i dont want this to get awkward..anyways.. my homes been chilled for a change..no more hardcore screams from mom or dad...so it feels real wierd..but its better...and today i unpacked my room..(i moved) it looks awsome..a friend came over to help me..i think having a pretty room will help me feel better about myself..sometimes i feel like im too hard on myself...i mean i know i dont like me at all..but why cant i try ?? i mean after all...im gonna deal with me my whole life...i look soooo geek talking about myself like this im gonna stop now...night people....