i can't believe how so much time passes by and yet nothing ever changes. my family is still a wreck. i still cant wait to get out of school. i still have to be running to catch up with my friends. i still bite my nails to the point of bleeding everytime. i still like to hurt myself. im still at the verge of crying everytime im awake. im still waiting for something amazing to happen. i still wait until tomorrow to start a full and happy life. i still regret every breath i take. i still wish i could do everything different. i'm still trying to stop smoking. i'm still causing myself pain because it feels good. i still wish i didn't.