dear diary, he's been gone for two days now, and life's seems so different...my mom explodes for almost everything, my sister is almost always mad and i cry for everything..i hope this is not gonna last like this for much..i had the strangest dream..i always have them..today we are going to have lunch with the family (the rest of it)..i dont know what else to write...i just woke up i feel really wierd..sad...and kind of alone..whatevr..later...