me head hurts...a lot...i smoke too much i guess thats it...i went to the mall for lunch with some friends and beto was there...i have to admit it ...i think im starting to like him..again..we liked each other like two years ago but it was a bum so we decided to be friends and we became best friends and now he has a girlfriend and i think im starting to like him...fuck...i dunno mayb its just that we get along so well..but then why would i see everything pink when im with him and we get along so kul...i mean...many people think were dating but were not...i cant say anything to him cuz he has a girlfriend and we are best friends i mean i would ruin everything..well ill try not to worry anymore..im trying this new thing were i try to actually stay happy for about a day...saturdays are my day off though i always get really sloppy no saturdays dont ask...migrane is killing me...i smell like an f'ing ashtray and my mom is about to get home...im totally over gus now..thats like a plus...i still melt when i see him cuz hes soo dam good looking..hes burning hot...but hes an ass so that sucks...later..