okay so this is about the third entry i post today...n todays my first day with this diary thingy haha...i dunno if this happens to anyone but it sure happens to me..when ur bored u start torturing urself thinking about stupid guys n stupid things theyve done or uve done about them...this guy..gus..hes like the cutest guy in the whole world..n he seems so perfect..(he plays guitar)...n i thought things were kinda working out between us..(by working out i mean we finally started talking!!) anyway..i just found out that the bloody jerk's dating a friend..no need for enemies with this kinda friends..shes not guilty though cuz she didnt know im crazy about him..no one knew cuz i just accepted it myself..so on friday were at school and i only see him at reccess and at the end of school cuz hes in 9 grade and im in 8 grade..so were at the benches where we hang out at the end..and hes talking to my friend caro..and she tells him :so how are things going with moni? (moni is the devil dater) and he goes like : omg so awsome i cant wait to see her tonight blah blah blah...and my heart goes from blank to a fucking cliff to kill itself and while falling it shouts I HOPE YOU BOTH MAKE OUT AND GET AIDS AND SUFFER A LOT AND DIE! ...i know im kinda harsh but goshhh i just hate her soo much...and shes like sooo girly and prettyy..were like opposites im all not femenine and im like the guys friend..well..if someone has any advice i could use please post it cuz watching him think about her every day fucking kills me!!